PistolxSweetheart

I still think it'd be grand to take a pistol by the hand. 

Sometimes I love music more than anything else.

I'm not as happy as they think.

I stole magnets from the store when I was in elementary school.

I question nearly every thing I do.

I feel guilty (almost) EVERY.  DAY.  for a "spat" I had with a girl who used to be my best friend in sixth grade.

I fear success because I don't think I'd know what to do with myself if everything went my way.

In some ways, my inconsistent and confused thoughts about religion deeply sadden me.

I wish I had the courage to tell everyone these things in my real life.

I saw these guys yesterday, and I was fucking blown away. I already liked them, but they had so much energy and emotion... the vibes of the crowd were just amazing. I got goosebumps so many times. And at the "End" of the show, when they performed "In Our Bedroom After the War", they turned a ballad into an anthem. Fucking amazing. They came back for an encore, which was awesome. And they threw roses and flowers into the audience throughout the performance. Magnet opened.

I got a white rose. It made my day.


Probably the most amazing thing that has ever happened ever.

Five songs that changed my life. In no particular order.

I don’t know if I can explain all of these, so just bare with me.

I could change this list every day, if I let myself. But I’m not going to, so here goes.

1. No Lies, Just Love by Bright Eyes. Truly amazing song. It’s filled with such emotion. I’ve felt like this before, and this song makes it seem... like that’s okay. This song can make me cry. It’s just so amazing. It feels so real.

2. Helena by My Chemical Romance. Don’t you dare laugh. This song was one of my “openings” into my interest in music, and one of the reasons music is such an important part of my life today. Helena is part of the reason that I have a passion for music.

3. Stolen by Dashboard Confessional. Another amazing song. This song is filled with emotion, and though it isn’t sad, it can bring tears to my eyes. Energy just... emenates from every part of this song. It’s infectious and amazing.

4. Octupus’s Garden by The Beatles. This is the first “real” song I remember hearing. I was in Kindergarden when I heard it play- my teacher was a fan of The Beatles. My mom came to pick me up and I asked her about it. I’ve been into The Beatles ever since.

5. Whatsername by Green Day. I became a fan of Green Day after American Idiot was released. This song was always one of my favorite tracks. I always found it interesting because the song wasn’t a sobby, sappy, slow (golly gee, alliteration) love song. However, it still contained emotion; Emotion that came through along with the rock themes.

I've decided that
sanity
is
overrated.

not that I didn't already think that.

just... letting you all know. right.



I finished eclipse. ohmygod.

now I need some trashy book to read to make me feel better.

my music tastes are evolving
again




iheartindie.


kthxbai.

so I was thinking.


there's a lot of drama in life. a lot.

like right now, with Gerard Way and Eliza Cuts. And the whole letter thing at INO.

Lots to worry about, you know?

I sound like a pothead.

awesome.

Anyway. Sometimes... it's hard to remember, with all of the drama and such, that it's REAL LIFE. not a game, not a riddle, not a story. it's not one of the stories you write because you're bored... it's not one of your guilty pleasure soap opera TV shows.

it's real life, and people are on the line. possibly people's emotional and/or well being.

and I'm not scolding anyone, except for maybe myself.

oblivion is a bit frightening, is it not?

just a little something to think about.


CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
Lose Control - Evanescence

<3 they rock in my most humble opinion.